Sex work, which I knew nothing about while standing with deep longing and trepidation moving in my body, was not what I intended to provide. No, I wanted to perform love work and traveling to the netherworld of ambiguity was, in my mind, well-worth it. I sought after liberation: freedom from the anxieties of heteronormativitity. And, if I am honest, I wanted to have boundless sex with another man in a “world” that did not create me, but in one that I created. And isn’t it the case that we, queers, are often in search of other worlds because we have been shamed in this one? Read more
Darnell L. Moore is a writer/activist whose work is informed by anti-racist, feminist, queer of color, and anti-colonial thought and advocacy. He lives in Brooklyn, NY. This essay was originally presented in the form of a public presentation as part of a panel titled “Exploring Queer Shame,” which was graciously hosted by the Kelly Writer’s House at The University of Pennsylvania on October 2, 2012.